Growing up as an only child I've never really been close to anyone. Honestly, i've never had a best friend. Some how anytime I get close to someone I always end up losing them. So I just try to be mutual with everyone.
I would admit some of my lost friendships/relationships were because of my personality. Im not the type of person to really fight for the relationship I quicker push the person away than try to mend the friendship.
I have messed up past relationships and lost many friends because of the bit of indifference in my personality. I can't really help it but that's just how I am. I know it's bad because I have lost a few great friends and now i find myself not being able to trust anyone.
Sometimes I have so many issues I'm dealing with and I just need someone to talk to but because of my lack of trust in everyone I just keep everything to myself.
I know we're all different - but from what I have experienced over the years - most people need someone to talk to at some stage. Obviously, I am unaware of your personal circumstances - I would encourage you to try to find someone whom you respect and feel comfortable with and just maybe the opportunity to share will arise. Sometimes when there is so much going on it is really difficult to work our way through things - and to think our way through things in a clear and objective way can also be really difficult. I hope you are able to find someone who could help you with this - sometimes we can find them in places we had never expected. Best wishes. Jeff.
ReplyDeleteThank you,I'm definately trying.
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