I finally learnt my lesson it's not worth it to always plan out everything.
I usually like to plan everything before it happens. Whether its something important like a speech or something trivial like a social event. I would spend my night thinking about what I'm going to wear or who I'm going to talk to or what I'm going to say etc. I've come to realize that sometimes not everything can go my way and sometimes I just need to go with the flow. Everything that's meant to happen will take place at its own time.
Sometimes life has its own plans whether good or bad and planing things out in my head isn't really a good idea since it usually leads to disappointments.
Yes it's good to have high expectations but it's also good to be realistic. So I think this summer I'll try to go with the flow and not get my hopes up too high that way I'll have less disappointments and be able to accept situations the way life has planned them out for me.
Wednesday 18 July 2012
Wednesday 4 July 2012
Self Respect
A lot of girls spend their time looking for ways to impress boys rather than being themselves and standing out. I understand growing up as a teenage girl is really difficult. It always seems as though everyone is looking at you and making judgements. I've seen so many girls that I know become humiliated because of one mistake.
Many of them give themselves to boys because they think that's the only way they can keep them. A boy once told me that any girl that is willing to give herself to him at this age is definitely someone who he could never respect. At first I thought it was extremely rude to say and I started to look at him differently but growing up I have realised that what he said actually does make sense. Many girls don't have respect for themselves so it is hard to respect them but at the same time we can't be too quick someones actions because we don't particularly know their situation. However, I do believe that no situation could be so bad for any teenage girl to expose herself to boys and act as a sex symbol. " your body is a temple"
I have to thank God for the way I was brought up, I always have respect for myself and I try not to make any mistakes that I know would change the way people look at me.
Many of them give themselves to boys because they think that's the only way they can keep them. A boy once told me that any girl that is willing to give herself to him at this age is definitely someone who he could never respect. At first I thought it was extremely rude to say and I started to look at him differently but growing up I have realised that what he said actually does make sense. Many girls don't have respect for themselves so it is hard to respect them but at the same time we can't be too quick someones actions because we don't particularly know their situation. However, I do believe that no situation could be so bad for any teenage girl to expose herself to boys and act as a sex symbol. " your body is a temple"
I have to thank God for the way I was brought up, I always have respect for myself and I try not to make any mistakes that I know would change the way people look at me.
Thursday 28 June 2012
Faults
Growing up as an only child I've never really been close to anyone. Honestly, i've never had a best friend. Some how anytime I get close to someone I always end up losing them. So I just try to be mutual with everyone.
I would admit some of my lost friendships/relationships were because of my personality. Im not the type of person to really fight for the relationship I quicker push the person away than try to mend the friendship.
I have messed up past relationships and lost many friends because of the bit of indifference in my personality. I can't really help it but that's just how I am. I know it's bad because I have lost a few great friends and now i find myself not being able to trust anyone.
Sometimes I have so many issues I'm dealing with and I just need someone to talk to but because of my lack of trust in everyone I just keep everything to myself.
I would admit some of my lost friendships/relationships were because of my personality. Im not the type of person to really fight for the relationship I quicker push the person away than try to mend the friendship.
I have messed up past relationships and lost many friends because of the bit of indifference in my personality. I can't really help it but that's just how I am. I know it's bad because I have lost a few great friends and now i find myself not being able to trust anyone.
Sometimes I have so many issues I'm dealing with and I just need someone to talk to but because of my lack of trust in everyone I just keep everything to myself.
Monday 18 June 2012
One step closer
Today was the first day I had to go back to school since my exams. It was really an eye opener I've changed so much and I have a lot of work that needs to get done.
My old highs are now my new lows.
Today I tried to be as focused as possible. It was so hard though because I really want to succeed and do well but at the same time I don't want to be up all night doing calculus or learning about the nervous system.
But then I look at the bigger picture and know that most successful persons had to sacrifice their time to make their dreams come true. People don't become successful by sitting down worrying about all the work that they need to get done.
So putting all the worries aside I'm trying to just look at the bigger picture. Do I want to get into a good university or not? Do I want to invent something or come up with an idea to improve the world? And yeah I want all these things and more but in order to achieve any of this, I have to start some where.
So today I promised myself I'll get straight A's this last year at high school, I'll try to be more daring and take more risks in and out of the classroom.
Rather than keeping everything to myself ill share my ideas. I'll take lead.
Sometimes we have the right ideas and answers but because we are afraid of what others think we keep things to ourselves.
Not anymore, I need to get over that. Suppose Einstein was too ashamed of being wrong that he never shared his theories. Where would we be today?
You have an idea then share it, to you it may seem silly but to the world it may seem brilliant and life changing.
Xo
My old highs are now my new lows.
Today I tried to be as focused as possible. It was so hard though because I really want to succeed and do well but at the same time I don't want to be up all night doing calculus or learning about the nervous system.
But then I look at the bigger picture and know that most successful persons had to sacrifice their time to make their dreams come true. People don't become successful by sitting down worrying about all the work that they need to get done.
So putting all the worries aside I'm trying to just look at the bigger picture. Do I want to get into a good university or not? Do I want to invent something or come up with an idea to improve the world? And yeah I want all these things and more but in order to achieve any of this, I have to start some where.
So today I promised myself I'll get straight A's this last year at high school, I'll try to be more daring and take more risks in and out of the classroom.
Rather than keeping everything to myself ill share my ideas. I'll take lead.
Sometimes we have the right ideas and answers but because we are afraid of what others think we keep things to ourselves.
Not anymore, I need to get over that. Suppose Einstein was too ashamed of being wrong that he never shared his theories. Where would we be today?
You have an idea then share it, to you it may seem silly but to the world it may seem brilliant and life changing.
Xo
Wednesday 13 June 2012
Self Love
It's so easy waking up every morning and counting your flaws rather than your blessings. As usual for any teenage girl we spend a lot of time looking in the mirror complaing or worrying that we aren't good enough. Well at least this is something I definately do a lot. I mean society is so tough on girls it's really hard to stay confident and not be so harsh on our looks.
For me personally I find it so hard to see the beauty in myself because of how beauty is portrayed by the media. It's honestly heartbreaking for me sometimes.
Today after ranting for about 10 minutes on how much weight I have put on in the past few months and how the fat hasn't gone to that one body area every girl wants it to go to ( my boobs ) I turned on the tv to something very humbling.
What I saw didn't make me a 100% more confident on the way I look but it definately made me more appreciative of not only my looks but for proper health and functioning body organs.
What I saw was an 18 month year old boy who was born with four of his toes stuck together on each foot and four of his fingers on each hand. His face was also completely deformed and his parents are fairly young and can't even afford for their son to have surgery.
I felt terrible for complaing about my appearance when there are so many children and even people my age who have disfigured body parts but still go through each day with a smile on their face. So many people out there have to go through all different types of surgeries to fix body parts.
Who am I to complain?
For me personally I find it so hard to see the beauty in myself because of how beauty is portrayed by the media. It's honestly heartbreaking for me sometimes.
Today after ranting for about 10 minutes on how much weight I have put on in the past few months and how the fat hasn't gone to that one body area every girl wants it to go to ( my boobs ) I turned on the tv to something very humbling.
What I saw didn't make me a 100% more confident on the way I look but it definately made me more appreciative of not only my looks but for proper health and functioning body organs.
What I saw was an 18 month year old boy who was born with four of his toes stuck together on each foot and four of his fingers on each hand. His face was also completely deformed and his parents are fairly young and can't even afford for their son to have surgery.
I felt terrible for complaing about my appearance when there are so many children and even people my age who have disfigured body parts but still go through each day with a smile on their face. So many people out there have to go through all different types of surgeries to fix body parts.
Who am I to complain?
Tuesday 12 June 2012
Teenage
Adults think that teenagers have it do easy and just complain too much but honestly I think as a teen life can be a huge challenge.
I'm not saying that the life of a teenager is easier than an adults because we don't have to pay bills or work over time or even work through the summer vacations like our parents do.
What I do think is that the life of a teen as well as the life of an adult are both challenging. They both have their ups an downs and their similarities and differences.
For me I can only speak on the life of a teen. I think being a teenage girl can e immensely overwhelming at times. Some days you feel as though you're on top of everything and other days you just want to cry yourself to sleep and hope you don't even wake up in the morning. Well that's how it is for me.
There are days where I definitely feel as though nothing can go wrong.
Example :
On a date with someone you really like
A shopping date with your mom
Ice cream or a movie with friends or family
Partying with your girls etc
But then some days life has its own plans and switches everything up. Sometimes it seems like the end of the world. I call these tests and I think life/God is just trying to show you how strong you are. At first it may seem unbearable but looking back you see how much this "test" has made you grow.
Be strong :)
xo
I'm not saying that the life of a teenager is easier than an adults because we don't have to pay bills or work over time or even work through the summer vacations like our parents do.
What I do think is that the life of a teen as well as the life of an adult are both challenging. They both have their ups an downs and their similarities and differences.
For me I can only speak on the life of a teen. I think being a teenage girl can e immensely overwhelming at times. Some days you feel as though you're on top of everything and other days you just want to cry yourself to sleep and hope you don't even wake up in the morning. Well that's how it is for me.
There are days where I definitely feel as though nothing can go wrong.
Example :
On a date with someone you really like
A shopping date with your mom
Ice cream or a movie with friends or family
Partying with your girls etc
But then some days life has its own plans and switches everything up. Sometimes it seems like the end of the world. I call these tests and I think life/God is just trying to show you how strong you are. At first it may seem unbearable but looking back you see how much this "test" has made you grow.
Be strong :)
xo
A new life
It's hard putting away your old habits and trying to move forward with your life but it's even more of a challenge seeing everyone doing what you once used to do.
I mean I was always the party girl, always happy to get out of the house and stuff ( I'm not a drinker or smoker I'm about dancing and having a fun time).
This year I wanted to try something new. This being my last year of high school I wanted to be more focused so I can do excellent on my SATs and hopefully get into an ivy league school (my biggest dream).
It's hard seeing everyone living the life I once used to live: balancing grades, sleep and social time.
Now for me it's just grades and sleep..
My life is so different now, I barely talk to the people I once used to. I know it seems bad but I just really don't wanna lose focus. I just need to be balanced this year get into a great university and then I can start over and try new things. I mean I do have basically the rest of my life to party and have fun for now that's just not my motive.
I must say it sucks going on Facebook and seeing everyone in pictures from the party last night. It does crush me inside to see the boy of my dreams in a picture with my worst enemy. It's hard but it's life. Trying to ignore everything around me gets so overwhelming sometimes but I then I think about how happy I'll be if I get a 2200 on my SATs and get into the university of my dreams.
Hopefully it'll all be worth it in the end.
I mean I was always the party girl, always happy to get out of the house and stuff ( I'm not a drinker or smoker I'm about dancing and having a fun time).
This year I wanted to try something new. This being my last year of high school I wanted to be more focused so I can do excellent on my SATs and hopefully get into an ivy league school (my biggest dream).
It's hard seeing everyone living the life I once used to live: balancing grades, sleep and social time.
Now for me it's just grades and sleep..
My life is so different now, I barely talk to the people I once used to. I know it seems bad but I just really don't wanna lose focus. I just need to be balanced this year get into a great university and then I can start over and try new things. I mean I do have basically the rest of my life to party and have fun for now that's just not my motive.
I must say it sucks going on Facebook and seeing everyone in pictures from the party last night. It does crush me inside to see the boy of my dreams in a picture with my worst enemy. It's hard but it's life. Trying to ignore everything around me gets so overwhelming sometimes but I then I think about how happy I'll be if I get a 2200 on my SATs and get into the university of my dreams.
Hopefully it'll all be worth it in the end.
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